Questions

by Kaitlyn Gilbertson

The snowy surface, it brings back the pain.
While the children laugh and dance, I simply suffer.
It seemed perfect at the time, another happily-ever-after-thing.
But it worked like a drug, how you're in heaven till you crash.
AND I CAN'T FORGET.

It's etched into my mind, the bliss pain scarred on my life.
I've tried a dozen times to rewind, but you've always popped up somewhere.
There's no definite surface with you, I see that now.
And I get that forever isn't in your vocabulary, but I thought I could change you.
SO MUCH FOR THAT.

Even now, as I live and breathe like everyone else.
I'm still affected by you, why?
I am cursed with this wondering, why did it have to be me?
Why couldn't it have been someone stronger, someone who could of handles you?
TOO MANY QUESTIONS.