Second Chance

by Jaki

I said yes in a daze of happiness,
Letting the dark, warm shade of his eyes,
Melt longingly into mine

The smile reached the edges of my mouth,
As his arms held me safely,
The sun settling warmly onto my back

His gentle kiss played teasingly,
On the nape of my neck,
As my soft giggle resounded around us

Should I be worried? I asked him nervously
About what? he replied cautiously
How strongly I feel about you

He placed a tender kiss on the top of my head,
Smiling down at me, reassuring me,
That everything was fine

The days blurred by in a clouded haze,
The sun a shining gift from heaven,
His every embrace a worrying sign of love

Memories of past lovers fill my head,
The pain they had caused,
Reverberating throughout me

I must have subconsciously stepped back,
Pushed my new lover to a safe distance away,
Saving myself from the inevitable pain

Despite his finest efforts,
I let my wall stand tall,
Not letting a soul in

He couldn't stand the loneliness anymore,
And the flame that was once burning,
Died

And so now I'm left alone,
But this time the pain is different,
Because I only have myself to blame

I don't know how to move on,
Because I miss him,
And he doesn't miss me

And the only thing I can pray for,
Is a second chance,
That I know Ill never get.