End of Feelings

by Gazette18

I've opened my heart and let you in
You've stayed for a while, now you win
I am already hurt when you went away
Now you continue hurting me in every word that you say

My everything was swept away by time
Including your love which I thought was mine
You know how much I have cried
You've turned away and left me broken inside

I admit that I can't (but I did try) to give everything you need
And I believe that if you've loved me, you'll understand I did
Tried to be the best in every little thing that I do
To keep the fire burning, I did hope you will too

How easy it was for you to just let me go
Without considering my feelings, how much I've loved you so
You've neglected me as if I was never part of your life
I feel so useless, I am totally in strife

My effort wasn't appreciated at all
I thought you'll be just right there to catch me if I fall
But instead of serving as my encourager
You've torn me apart, I was left a looser

Broken vows, lost dreams and trust
Fading love and disappearing lust
How sad it was to end our story
I did hope we'll last but I was sorry

The stars in my evening sky slowly disappeared
Not so unusual, I consider it weird
How can my world be ruined just by YOU?
Will you ever say again that you've loved me too

My tears were the semblance of the unending loneliness you've made
of the love once burning but now has to fade
Why did I let myself fall and be loved by you
I could have just neglected even if what you said were true

Here I am, left broken and alone once again
Thinking of rhymes, writing with my pen
My eyes filled with shimmering crystal tears
I am filled with so much miseries and fears

The solace I have found in you
Was given to somebody, you have said adieu
The person that I expected to care for me
Found someone new and had set me free

But how can I ever set aside
The love I have for you, the tears that I've cried
My animosity made my days pretty long
I've felt so empty everything seemed to be wrong

Here's my heart and open hand
Whether if you'll take it or leave it I'll understand
I will still love you despite of the pain
I'll accept the truth that you're not mine anymore,my love for you will remain*

written: 29 August 2006