Reading between your lies

by Gazette18

I wish I was never brave that I've let you go
I was crying my tears more than what you know
It was like a wound which never heals
So painful and lonely, I can't imagine how it feels

Saying you'll leave, can't you fight for what we have?
I can't find a reason why you've given me up and my love
How will I accept the truth that you've just thrown me away
I was like counting every grain of sand just to know where to stay

Days were so sad, I don't know what to do
Searching for a way to forget the bitterness done by you
Everything became so useless, I'm already tired
How can you do this to me, you're even one of the persons I admired

How could you say your love for me was true
If you've just left me so lonely and blue
I did consider you an angel, I didn't know you'll break my heart
Now we have to go our separate ways, now we have to part

I've been like crazy missing you everytime
I thought what you said were true yet it was all a lie
Reminiscing the sweetness of words you've once said to me
I was blinded by you, stop pretending you did love me

You made me believe that your love is for real
I was so stupid believing what I feel
Finding out that you've left me for someone
I was so stupid loving you, I thought you'll be my man

How stupid I am crying my tears for you
Sleepless nights while you're hanging with someone new
I regret every moment I've wasted just to have you back
Now all I can say is "goodbye" and "goodluck"

Damn this heart who believed in you
Believed that you're real, what you said were true
Hate these eyes crying cascades of tears
My heart screaming so loud though no one hears

Hate this mind thinking of you often
How I wish I could turn back time, how I wish I can
These hands writing letters just for you
I hate myself, what must I do?

I thought you're different, one of a kind
I thought you're serious, things which made me blind
Now I can see who you really are basing on what you've said
A person who only takes everything for granted

Why on earth people like you exist
You said you'll not hurt me, you did insist
But look what you've done, you've broke my heart
Hope I could forget what had happened from the start

Reading between your lies keeps hurting me
Why can't I smile though now I am free?
Look at me, have you realized your mistakes?
You left me in cold, why is this world full of fakes?

Now my heart was torn into pieces
Recalling the moments filled with sweetness
Feeling the thorns which are cleaving my heart in despair
How could you leave me behind, you're so unfair

Here I am, not knowing where to start again
Trying to feel happy but still I can't
Just a glimpse of yesterday fill my eyes with tears
I've learned how to love but now it's one of my greatest fears

I hope people will learn how to mean what they say
If they've promised to stay then they shouldn't go away
If they've promised that they won't hurt us
Then they should make sure their love will never last

Love's really full of inconsistencies
We get hurt yet there are things we miss
It makes us happy but also makes us cry
It's a reason to live yet a reason to die

Sometimes it's true but sometimes full of lies
There's trust but we still ask questions with WHYs
We want to forget but still we remember
We want to close our doors but here comes another

We say we're strong though we feel weak
We say we're fine but hey! we look sick
In every teardrop there comes a smile
Forgetting the heartache even just for a while

Sometimes we dream just to be with the person we love
We oftenly say that they're the only things we have
They serve as the world we consider a paradise
They're making us feel the intimacy not seen by the eyes

Lies and denials, sorrows and pain
Aside from the sweetness underneath the falling rain
Broken hearts, teardrops and shattered dreams
Upon reading between your lies, these are the hidden scenes

*written: 09 April 2006

_i was so broken then..