I wish I could be

by Black Princess

I Wish I could be the girl for you,
see you smile and make your dreams come true,
Be the one who you always turn too,
God I wish I was the girlfor you.

But boy you know it as well as I
that if you say you love me its just a lie,
and although I wish that it was all real
I know deep down it is not how you feel.

I am not going to cry any more more,
tired of watching my soul fall through the floor,
tired of picking up my broken bits
continuously fighting back emotion fits.

I hope to god you understand
that I was the only faithful girl to hold your hand,
that night when you where crying to me
I never once questioned you masculinity.

You were my world boy you still are
my love for you covers the scars.
I care for you, is that so hard to see
but I know your perfect girl just is not me.

So I stand up tall and continue to smile
pretending my life is still worthwhile,
painfully I watch the girls fall at your feet
I feel my heart shatter, but still I accept my defeat.