Unable To Find The Words

by C Cattaway

I don't know what I want to say.
I only want to cry.
I really want for someone just
To tell me when I'll die.

If I can't live the life I want,
And I cannot adapt,
For God knows how I've truly tried,
Then why can't I collapse?

What is this strength I find inside?
Why can I not give up?
Why do I strive to fight the day
Where I'm forever stuck?

What is it that I could acheive
When I feel quite as low
As how I feel each time I watch
You when you have to go?

How can I find the peace I need
When you have got my heart?
How can you say you're here for me
When you rip me apart?

How can I feel the warmth I feel
When I hold you so close?
How can I smile when in my soul
I'm feeling so morose?

How do I wake each brand new day?
How do I challenge fate?
How can I be impatient, hunny,
When you make me wait?

Your love feels so perfect when
You're sharing all your lies.
You leave me feeling such a fake.
Did you realise?

I don't know what I want to say.
I simply lift my eyes
To pray that one day I will smile
Just coz I see the skies.

I don't know what I want to say,
But something that I do
Know is that there's only one
True love. I'm here for you.